Ibnu Walid Bin Zaabah....When we look at the name,it showed the person like a kind man because the name most like arab name.like the past warrior in islamic.right??
But,,,i feel like myself not like that.I try to be a man who followed islamic life..but,it hard to be like that..i`ve learn about islam and the element2 in islam at my school..i`ve take subject Al-Quran & As-Sunnah, Syariah Islamiah,and Pendidikan Islam and now i take CTU(subject about islam) at my university. When i look at myself,i never use and practice what i`ve learn all about Islam..huh..just islam in Ic but my attitude dosen`t show i`m the muslim..i dissapointed with myself..how to be a graet muslim and mukmin..??i`ve try to change my self but it for a short time..i`ll change to my old attitude back..always make sin..i know my weakness that make i turn into my old attitude..i never change the weakness because i always do follow my lust..it true..in islam said,dont close with Zina..because that is the syaitan tools to make "ummat islam" not follow the rule in islam..not follow what islam avoid..i know that..but...hmmm...how??how i want control myself to make sure i not involve in the problem..I think i need someone to...hm..a person who can bring me to the real life in islam..mybe i need to close myself to our god(Allah S.W.T)...to people who read this,please pray for me.hope that i can follow what islam want..sincerely.....hopefully..thanks.
